ricominciare da capo - start anew

start anew:
When I realized I had used yoga to hold my malaise
I detached from it replacing it with more physical
needs just as I detached from eating rules,
forced wake-up time, etc...
Now I can't start over again, though...
Did I lose trust in the practice? in the masters?
in me? How can I start again when I feel like this???
I know everything is still inside me...
but it won't come out! =_=
Maybe, and I say maybe, I could just sit on the mat as if it was my first yoga lesson
and start anew.